Morning Rant

I hate waking up alone, it sucks. Waking up without my man is simply one of those things that should be less than acceptable. You marry someone, you're totally in love and you never wake up to him or her, in my case him. My husband works on the road as a tower hand, he climbs radio towers for a living, as a result he's on the road quite a bit. His schedule is similar to a truck driver's schedule. We moved to Vegas because he was promised a job that would keep him home more than half the year and put him back into a higher position. We have been blessed that he has actually been home more this year, but his job still takes him away so early in the morning, 4am or 6am and sometimes even 3am, that we rarely get to wake up next to each other.

I believe in hanging onto the little things in life and in close relationships. I cherish those mornings when we both run to the bathroom to brush our teeth before we kiss or say fuck it and roll over to cuddle for an extra hour. I realize that being young and even younger into our marriage that time sacrifice for the sake of good jobs and paying our bills is necessary, but I don't have to like it.

Personally my schedule is so irregular that I would miss him most of the time based on my schedule alone. We talk about retirement A LOT! It's a daydream, a place we both go to get away from the things we dislike and back to the things we miss.

It's interesting now too, when friends in the past got hitched sometimes they'd disappear and piss their friends off for never coming around for a beer or social gathering. Now I understand that although you're married to that person you may barely get to see them at all too. If you both have jobs or any kind of personal goals then there will most likely be a lack of quality time spent together.

I wake up alone. I have my morning coffee and let the dog out for his morning piss. I turn on the tube for some background chatter, and throw on some comfort clothing until I have to jet out the door. It's okay, I don't need sympathy or the "awe it'll be alright" from anyone. I have adjusted. Lets just say, most days, I can't wait until retirement.

Good Morning Vegas.